Friday, February 16, 2018

Finished Journal + Life Update + Sketches

Just finished my latest journal! I'm so excited! I love starting new notebooks but I wasn't really in love with this one, it's by Markings from Staples but it only cost $5 but I still made every dollar count! This one took me almost 4 years to complete, since March of 2014. I used to have time to journal near daily but that slid off about when I got my previous job. I had been journaling off and on last year but I'm determined to journal at least weekly when I can. It's been fun to see my progress and journey in those 4 years. 

If you haven't considered writing in a journal, I wholeheartedly recommend that you do. You don't have to write personal stuff in there if you don't want to but I find that when I write uncensored I feel tons better. It's therapeutic and helps me sleep better at night without those constant thoughts running through my head. I'm the type of person who roles around in bed for an hour before falling asleep so it helps me unwind.

Here you can see the filled pages. Since I had gone on a few trips, I gathered some paraphernalia from the trips and decided to put it in the pages. Probably not the best idea because they weren't really put in order in the pages that I journaled about the trips. Also because the pages are so full the magnetic enclosure no longer closes the book which kind of bothers me but I don't want to cut the enclosure off but for the future I may keep separate journals for trips. The random papers and receipts were sitting on my desk and I finally decided I needed to put them somewhere. haha

Saturday, February 3, 2018

Internal struggles and Grace

Hey guys, decided to do a little real talk today. I've been feeling sick the last few weeks and I believe part of it is mental exhaustion and stress. Don't get me wrong, part of it is physical too as I've also had to take time off because I've been feeling feverish, achy, and have headaches which are rare for me. I literally took some night medicine and slept 15 hours, almost all the way through because I was so exhausted. The funny thing is that I ended up staying up 15 hours after I woke up because I had rested so much.

I think I have the flu or something like that. I was feverish and had chills off and on during the week, I just thought it was the fluctuating temperatures where I'm at where it's been jumping between below freezing temperatures to 40 or 50 degrees Fahrenheit in the span of a few days. I know the flu has been going around all over the USA lately so it's possible I got some version of it but I feel like it has held me down. The flu and my negative mindset.

Anyways, what I'm saying is to remember to give yourself grace.

I know I've been giving myself a hard time with the new job because I wanted to show that I am a hard worker, am capable, and do my best. But that's all I need to do, do my best. If I'm constantly stressing myself out while I'm away from work, I don't give myself time to relax and enjoy my life. All this builds up into an explosion of stress and anxiety that I felt this past weekend.

Now I don't believe this is the first time this has happened for me but this is the first time I've been actively aware of it. I'm generally an easy going person so minor worries don't typically bother me but as I've grown older, I realized that this anxiety has gotten worse. Part of it is the impostor syndrome and comparing myself to others my age but I constantly need to remind myself that I'm doing the best I can and am doing what makes me happy.

Most people my age are further in their careers or have families. I'm not at that stage, not that I don't welcome it if it's the right time. It's just that my life is different and I know that there are things that they envy about my current life style. I have little responsibilities and I'm doing fine in my current role so far. Not that my friend's aren't doing well or what they wanted to do, but they have families to take care of now so it makes it harder for them to chase their dreams or to connect with them. But I'm struggling because I don't know if what I'm doing is right for me but I'm also afraid to chase after my dreams. I mean I am chasing my dreams but not full throttle like some people are and I admire them for going after their dreams.

I want to write my novels, create art, and travel the world.

These have been goals I've had for years. I've felt guilty for not being further along, for not working harder towards those goals when I wasn't working full time. Now I am working on those goals a little at a time while working a day job because I want the financial stability. I write or edit a little at a time during lunch or after work, I sketch when I can too, I'm making plans to go travel. Although those goals haven't been achieved quite yet, I'm making little steps to reach them. That's more than what I've done in previous years.

Everyone is different, everyone's situation is different. Only you can decide what you can do or are capable of but do remember to be kind to yourself. Forgive yourself if you couldn't write that day because you weren't feeling well and decided to binge watch a TV show (I totally did that this past weekend). The writing will always be there waiting for you. Know that you're doing the best you can right now and as long as you're moving, even if it's slowly, you're doing the right thing to achieve your goals.

Stay strong, give yourself grace, and chase after your dreams! Whether full throttle or a little at a time. As long as you're chasing them with the right mindset!

Saturday, January 20, 2018

I've opened a Patreon and I want your thoughts!

Hey friends!

If you follow me on Twitter then, you know that I was looking to start a Patreon and I did it! Please check out my Patreon (! It's still going to be tweaked so some things may change as I adjust and get the hang of it. For those of you who are unfamiliar with Patreon, it's a subscription based system where a person pays to see special content from a creator depending on the reward tier you choose. You can always quit the subscription at any time.

I've created my page and have a few reward tiers up if you feel inclined to help support me. You're not obligated to join or pay, it's just a little extra that helps me out. I'm looking for any type of reward you'd like to see from me. So far I've got sketches and an option where you guys can help choose my next sketch subject. I'm open to any ideas that you guys would like to see!

As I'm planning for 2018 for this blog, what kind of blog posts would you like to see from me? I think posting a blog post every 2 weeks seems to be a reasonable schedule for me. 

I've planned mostly progress blog posts to help hold me accountable but I'd love to hear if there's anything you'd like to see more of? Reviews? If so, of what? Life update blogs? I'm open to suggestions!

I'd really like to get more organized this year and be able to produce more regular posts for you guys so please look forward to that!

I'd love it if you guys could help share this post and comment! I know I get some views but I'd love to hear from you all and hope that I can help cater to what you'd like to see. Thank you for reading and sharing if you do so ahead of time!

Saturday, January 6, 2018

Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018

I'm alive!!!! See ya 2017, I'm so ready for 2018!

2017 ended up flying by for me the last half of the year. Lots of things happened. Some good, some bad. It's all a roller coaster adventure with its highs and lows.

2017 highlights:

  • Got a new job! Started December 1 and so far so good! Still can't kick some of the habits I learned from the previous job but I'm working on it.
  • I'm getting used to wearing "fancy clothes" for my business casual work place. I use that term loosely. That means anything that isn't a t-shirt, sweatshirt, jeans, shorts, athletic shoes or flip flops. Depends on the season. For those who don't know, those are my go-to clothes and would be totally fine wearing that everyday.
  • Rediscovered my passions and what I want to do with my life. This is helping me set some goals for 2018. 
  • Finished my latest sketchbook! Only took 5 years. haha But I'm proud to see the progress.
  • Figured out how I'm using some of my Traveler's Notebooks and pens! Instead of just collecting them and gazing adoringly at them on my bookshelf.
  • With the help of a dermatologist friend I'm finally able to manage my adult acne.
  • Realized I am fortunate enough to have pretty much everything I could want so trying not to buy any material things unless I truly need them.

That's all I can think of at the moment. I may update the list later if I can remember anything else.

Friday, December 15, 2017

Stay-cation Week

First day of my job (7/27/2017) vs last day of my job (11/ 30/2017) of my notebook. Beginning of a new chapter or plot twist in my life!

#travelersnotebook #speckledfawn #Kodiak #leather #notebook #patina #growth #change #career

Thursday, November 23, 2017

New Job + Online Store Sale

I'm still alive! Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends! 

Just my job has kept me busy and the only time I have to art, is to sketch, but it's nothing good enough to share on here. Funny thing, I've gotten a new job! Still at the same company but it's a different department. Plus side is that it's closer of a commute so instead of about 40 minutes to an hour commute one way (depending on traffic) it should decrease to about 20-30 minutes. I'll still be busy with the new job but I'm HOPING that once I get established I'll have some more free time.

Anyways, I super miss you guys and apologize for not posting. Again if you want to keep up with me you might want to check out my Twitter instead as I'm on there nearly daily even if I don't really post daily. lol I know, great prioritization.

I have a sale going on at my store! It's 20% off nearly everything in my store so please check it out! If you're interested, visit my Storenvy storefront!

Hope you all are doing well!

Monday, April 17, 2017

Life Update: New Job and Other Random Things

Ok, so I totally meant to post this right after I heard I got my new job! Which was *cringes* about 8 months ago...But I ended up finding that working full time is a lot more tiresome than I expected. I knew there would be a transition but the longer I was there, and the more I learned, the harder it was to have energy to blog or do anything once I got home. Still enjoy the job but found my spare time was a lot more limited than I would like. The reason I am able to post today is because I took a day off. I've taken off other days but I remembered the blog today. haha I haven't forgotten you guys, just haven't had much to say.

I digress, I'll try to blog more frequently. Hoping for at least once a month, but more would be ideal. I just to keep you all in the loop since it looked like I disappeared off here but do follow me on Twitter as I'm more active there. Anyways, here's the post I was going to schedule but forgot and then didn't have time...Sorry guys!

Anyways, hope you all are doing great!



Hey friends! Sorry I haven't been around. I've been meaning to update but I've been so busy with my new job! I am super ecstatic about it! I've been searching for a full time job for awhile so I'm feeling extremely blessed and fortunate for this opportunity. Unfortunately, it'll mean I'll have less time so I'm trying to enjoy what time I have while I can. That means sketching and working on my projects as well as spending time with my family. Check out below what I've been able to do for the Summer!

I'm on snapchat, find me at Aisazia. I haven't really used it much but I took a few snapchats of things that I found funny or interesting.

Here's a bird that lives in the lilac bush right outside my bedroom window. This is the second robin that decided to hatch an egg there.

Someone decided to try to take a bite out of a fake apple. XD

I haven't been able to play Pokemon Go yet, my phone sucks and I need a new one. It's ran out of space and all the things I tried to delete wasn't enough. I just need to replace it.

Took some snapchats of my trip to Cedar Point with my family. Got a few people who smoked in line which is a non-smoking area. D:< If you couldn't tell, I despise the smell of cigarette smoke. I saw a few others but didn't have time to take a picture as I walked by them. Otherwise, had a great time and it wasn't as cold in the dark or as hot in the sun as I expected. Enjoyed the night shots, it was almost a full moon. :D

Friday, May 20, 2016

Puerto Rico 2016

Sorry for the lack of updates. I really need to get back into being productive with my work. Recently I've been fortunate enough to travel to San Juan, Puerto Rico this past Spring! It was lots of fun and I really enjoyed it. I went with my family and a friend so I wasn't alone. Here's a few glimpses of my travels. 

I had plans to wind down and write or sketch but that didn't happen as much as I had hoped since we were constantly moving more than I expected which was fine. We were there for a week and while it was drizzly and partly sunny, it didn't deter us from enjoying ourselves. I actually appreciated the clouds so I didn't have the opportunity to burn myself before my friend's wedding. 

Her wedding was good! No major mishaps so I'd consider it a success. Most things went according to plan and other than a few minor downsides (cold weather where we had to wear a strapless dress and heels as well as a light rain) it went well. A lot of people didn't speak English so there were people rudely talking during the wedding ceremony and reception speeches. Other than that, I think it was good and I'm so glad it's over. Sorry, no pictures for that since it's a private thing but know that it was successful. Now I can focus on the things I want to do! AKA find a full time job and work on my art and writing.

Now on to the photos!

Pics as we're descending towards Puerto Rico.

Friday, April 15, 2016

Watercolor/Colored Pencil Fun

Yikes! Sorry guys! Trying to get back into updating! Ok, so a few new things I want to mention since my latest update.

Updated my online store at Storenvy! I now have buttons, stickers, a blank notebook, an ashcan sketchbook(limited quantity), and a minicomic(limited quantity), and my ORIGINAL ARTWORK. You know, if you're into that kind of thing. ^_~ I currently have everything 20% off! Use the code: GrandReopening20 at the checkout. Below are some of of the originals I have up for sale. I've used watercolor and colored pencil on them and they will be protected with a fixative.

I have updated my portfolio website domain as I've recently learned about not renewing domains and it can be expensive, especially if you don't renew right away. Apparently you have to wait several months for it to be available again and since I didn't want to pay the redemption fee on top of the domain cost, I opt to wait. Learn from my mistake. Currently it's but I plan to buy back my previous domain which is

I'd like to redesign the website when I can figure out what I want to do for it. For now, it's fine as is but if there are any issues or problems you see and want to let me know, feel free to contact me (find my contact page) or tweet me (@aisazia)! I'd love to hear your suggestions.

I know I missed my quarterly newsletter in December. There were so many things that happened that distracted me, I just didn't have time to make it or update it. Truthfully, I also felt I didn't have too much to add to it either. Something I shouldn't have a problem with this coming newsletter.

Friday, April 8, 2016

Life Update + Traveler's Notebooks

Hey guys! Been a long time! *glances at calendar and gasps* It's been about 4 months since I last blogged!

I want to apologize for it! Lately, I've been doing more reading the last few months and updating my other blog during the end of 2015 but this first quarter of the year has been lacking but I have a good reason for the last few months. Unfortunately I haven't been motivated to read now but I do want to get back into writing/sketching. No good reason why other than I hadn't been feeling like it but once I get started I don't have a problem finishing.

I've been waiting on beta reader feedback and recently (in Feb) received all the expected feedback but now I've been too much of a chicken to go back in to read and revise. All the feedback are reasonable and makes sense, I'm just not motivated to dive in and revise which isn't bad, I'm just procrastinating. While waiting, I wanted to write in February but was only able to get under 6k written which sucks because my goal was 20k. Still, it's progress and better than nothing.

Going to suck it up this month and go through my drafts and feedback when I can. Although, I already know that there is going to be a rehaul of the story including fleshing out characters and world. However, I realized this is going to be a busy month for me and know that it won't be possible. I wanted to do April Campnanowrimo this month but that already went belly up. Instead I decided I'll just read my current drafts and try to outline them if possible so it'll be a bit easier to revise.

Last month I've been asked to be Maid of Honor for a friend but it turns out she wants her wedding in May so technically we have 2 months to plan it.

Yeah, you read that right. 2 months! 

So all the bridal shower/bachlorette, decorations, dresses, etc. Yeah, needs to be done soon. Like yesterday. Fortunately, we have the dresses and some of the stuff done but still have lots to do. I'm glad my friend is pretty laid back about things but that also can be hard when coming to making a decision. I feel like everything is going to be rushed so she won't be able to enjoy anything...Oh well...I'm happy for her and I'm going to do my darndest to make things as easy as possible for her when the day comes. Unfortunately, it looks like it's going to be an all day affair. Like get up at 6am and done at 11pm sort of deal. That is including travel time. *dies* Anyways, enough of that, just wanted to explain why I haven't been as active as I should have been. You can read more in my quarterly newsletters if you're interested.

Just to add some visuals for you, I've been adding to my Traveler's Notebook are my latest acquisitions. :D I've bought and sold a few but didn't take photos as I knew I wouldn't keep them. My hopes is that I'll bring them with me and write/sketch as I go instead of relying on a computer to type things up and motivate me to sketch on the go more. Personally, I prefer handwriting my novels, I feel like I get a better flow of the story and easier to not go back and edit. Anyways, hoping these babies will get me motivated to write more. They are so pretty and feel amazing. *pets* Do you guys use them? If so, let me know! Share with me your social media so I can stalk follow you!